And the journey begins....

So its been a minute since i've written!! But today i finally have some free time...and well i created 2 other blogs!!! One for josh and one for stefan..whom are both serving their missions!! :)..but this blog is about me so i wanted to let everyone know that on this journey  even though i dont knew where im gong i know what i want!! I have goals and plans and as i acheive them you'll be hearing about them. I finally come to the point of understanding that if you want change it takes time, consistency and hard work!!!...I'm so proud of myself for working hard and getting my hours done for school. its amazing how working even when your not getting paid makes you feel like your worth something!! My days feel very accomplished! So my internship is something you'll be hearing about for a while. Another change that i have had is what i do for fun!! I've found myself in a happier place when i dont have a guilty conscience about what im up to!!! I have to say this week has been amazing and i thought i couldnt pin point why but the reason is..I'm doing things that are helping me be the person i want to be!! Im connecting all the dots of life!!!...NOW a current issue i'm still dealing with and working through is the separation of josh and i because of his mission!! I do still think about him ALOT..my problem is i listen to what everyone else has to say about us.. the negatives being it wont work out! ..NOW no one knows our relationship like me and him!! So listening to others is a bad idea because they truly are igonrant!! and yes i dont know the outcome but i know what i would like it to be!..While i wait to find out i'm just doing me!!! I'm making my life my way!...Being happy and free!..I feel as though my heavenly father has been looking out for me lately and has been hearing my prayers and cries to help me in the direction i want to go!! Needless to say I'm at the start of my journey!!! :) keep following..because its going to be a neat experience! :)